Practise every morning, drink green tea and water, take silent walks, sit at the beach and meditate. Sleep early without intoxicants and focus on the connection with Spirit throughout the day.
My weekly mantra describing the way i truly feel like living my life.
And then there is the turbulence of daily life, other peoples addictions seeping into my behaviour too.
I'm living my life here, surrounded by people adhering to a completely different rhytm, style and wants.
Neither good or bad, just different. A full-on challenge for me to stick to my own wants, more then that: my own needs.
The need to still my mind.
More and more am I becoming conscious to the utter clutter in my head. All the voices saying so many things really every waking minute of my days.
Sometimes it makes me feel desperate, sometimes it makes me feel giddy.
Why oh why do we even listen to all of this. Cos we're used to it, cos no-one explained us in the beginning to stay focussed on your center, instead of focussing on the mind. This powerful tool of us completely taking over our center, instead of the other way around.
Creating space in the heart for observation, that way creating space to focus on the mind and make it our helper, instead of our master.
Easier said then done.
I guess becoming aware of the mayhem inside the head is a good first step, accompanied by a huge dose of laughter and most of all, compassion.
Compassion for my own being, my own human experience.
And awe in regards to the intricate workings of the mind. Never mind the undying energy of those thoughtwaves and emotions accompanying them.
Cos aiaiai, those emotions...
A dear friend of mine told me recently that he found himself completely immersed in the concept of emotions.
I heard him, kinda 'knew' what he meant and am now becoming more and more appreciative for his sharing his revelations with me. This emotions are flowing to and through us at all times. How often dont you stop and think: why am i feeling this or that right now.
Taking over other peoples emotions, creating our own, making the choice - wether consciously or unconsciously- to attach to whichever emotion that is you are currently experiencing.
The other day, I'd made a mistake. A stupid one. It couldve put someone else into trouble - which didnt happen- and escalated in pretty heavy drama.
My fault so to speak.
When this all happened I noticed the physical effect: hot flashes racing up from the feet, belly on fire, raging heat around the heartspace and high breathing. My eyes widening, fingers tingling and voice changing.
And then I realized: i dont want to feel this. This doesnt make me feel at peace and sure as hell doesnt do anything to make the situation better.
Which would be THE time to breathe.
Exept I didnt. I realized what was happening, I rolled with it, I submerged myself in it and after hours of uneasiness (and a cigarette..why???!) I finally fell asleep.
Waking up horribly exhausted, fragile and super-emotional.
And then there was yoga.
The girl I'm helping out tomorrow with the yoga@ the surf-event gives her classes in a nearby forest and i thought it be wise to attend her class last night before throwing ourselves on a stage in front of 1000 people tomorrow.
It was the fuel I needed..
The peace, sturdiness of the surrounding trees and overwhelming feeling of quiet nurtured every cell in my system.
Being able to let all emotions and thoughts come and go I felt my face soften, my eyes shimmer and a sweet smile curling up the sides of my mouth.
Just flowing by listening to her sequence, just following, feeling and being. Nothing more then being there, surrounded by trees and fellow yogis, listening to my own breath..
Peace. Peace of mind, peace in the body, peace in the heart.
It's all good, everytime and all the time.
Living, learning and enjoying the lessons, good or bad.
Peace out sweet fellow humans,
cherish the planet, cherish yourself and
keep flying!!
