Enjoying the quiet before another storm,
enjoying the night alone in a house that feels like a home.
It rains outside or is it snow maybe.
I havent even been outside today!
Eventhough yesterday i pictured a stroll through the icy white park with a girlfriend. Ha!
Plans change again☺
I knew it was gonna be a ride from november, till yeah, pretty much today. So nothing changed there..
My planner showed notes for many different projects on every day of the week..
I hope one day i’ll trust myself enough with the universe to de-attach from planners alltogether..
But there you go, it’s all done, I have 3days of festive nothingness and now I lap up the fruit of my labour..
Sitting here at the table, glancing around often, amazed by the sight.
The house fits me like a glove, it feels so easy and free.
And there’s so much space!!
Space also to get together with myself again.
No people around, nothing on the ‘todo’.
Time to reflect and recall, bringing up memories and staying with them for a while. Some pleasant, others not.
I enjoy spending this type of time with myself. I get things done, i take my time, i sit and breathe.
I dont mind the racing around, as long as i get time around it to not do anything when i feel like it.
The yin&yang of my way of life.
It aches a bit around the heartspace when I think of next week sunday’s goodbyes. Beautiful friends, old and new.. you catch my drift: emotional.
And then it flutters when I think of Bangkok, my upcoming reunions and adventures inside’n out.
Two sides to the coin again..
The balance and peace of mind I’m aiming for can only truly be found on the inside. Outside it differs so often, the impressions can get so overwhelming in both amsterdam and living abroad. I need to go with the inside. Learn and experience my way into full trust.
Feel free to remind me whenever I get to involved..
So i guess thats how the story goes: you swim in the river and fight a bit and then you release again, and flow..
and wind up somewhere else!!
things do change, all the frigin' time:)
I’me flow outa here, i could go on for ever but my body wants to rest and the silence calls..
no idea how my updating is going to be once i’m on the road again but hey, thank the lord there’s facebook☺
If you read this before the new year starts: have fun wrapping it up, enjoy the fresh, clear and hopefully warm beginnings.
Have a good one!!
